On Love

A good friend of mine is leaving for Baltimore soon. I saw him sunday night, I probably won't see him again for a long time. I gave him a hug. But I was unable to say what I truly felt.

See, I am by default cynical and sarcastic -- thus I don't emotionally engage with anybody. But when someone breaks through those defenses, I can't tell them how much I care, that I wish them the best, that I will miss them. My exact words, during the short handshake-cum-hug that men are known for were: "It's been good".

What on earth does that mean? The conversation we just had was good, or the years of close friendship? The ice-cream, or our bond?

Another friend just graduated. I gave him a hug too. (Just the touching is a big deal for me) but didn't tell him that I was proud of what he had accomplished, that he had done well -- both true.

I am not incapable of emotion. Just expressing it.  ¶ 10:02 PM